From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org Date: Tue, 5 Sep 2000 13:51:45 -0500 Subject: Last Rose in the Desert by Laura Castellano Source: direct Reply To: laura@ddgallery.net TITLE: Last Rose in the Desert September 5, 2000 Author: Laura Castellano email: laura@ddgallery.net website: http://www.8op.com/laurita Disclaimer: Not mine, never were, never will be Rating: PG Keywords: post-apocalypse? Assumes the end of the world predicted to Mulder in Amor Fati II actually came to pass. This story grew from a strange dream I had last night. Archive: Ok for Gossamer and Xemplary--I'd appreciate knowing if it goes anywhere else. LAST ROSE IN THE DESERT by Laura Castellano She stumbles slowly across the burnt ground, lines of weariness etched upon her face, making paths for the tears which continue to fall unchecked. She is a single patch of color in the endless brown of what was once green and beautiful. Occasionally she speaks to the man at her side, the man only she can see, but there is nobody around to notice her frantic mumblings. Sometimes she cocks her head his direction, once in a while she even stops in her trek, turns her head toward the invisible man, and listens to his replies. When she sleeps, when her body must, he watches over her. She dreams of him then, of the way he spoke to her the last time she saw him. Mostly she continues onward, hoping that over the next hill, beyond the next crest, will be some sign of familiarity. Days have passed with little food, and the only water the collection of morning rain in a small metal cup she carries. It rains, briefly, every day, and for that she is grateful. It has kept her alive. She found the cup among some camping gear, its original owners long since disappeared. She ate their food, but it did not last her long. Sometimes she thinks all were taken up except her, that she is the last living human on what used to be the planet Earth, but on occasion she will find evidence of others left behind. They have not survived. She has, by her sheer will and determination, bolstered by the voice of the man at her side. She knows she must continue, for she will not stop until her quest is completed. She will kill the man who took him from her, the man who brought them all to this. She knows she is headed in the correct general direction, but maps are useless when all she has for landmarks are broken highways and empty streams. All recognizable signs of a once great civilization are gone now, leaving only the barest hint that people once walked this planet in billions. She continues on, driven by her instinct and her hatred, knowing eventually she will reach him, secure in the facility in which he and his kind protected themselves while the world around them burned. At first, she was accompanied by the child, daughter of the man at her side, but children require care that she was unable to give in this vastly changed world, and when the girl at last gave up life, the woman buried her, marking the desert grave with as many rocks as she could find. She checked the weapon in her knapsack before moving on, vowing to the girl and the man that those who had done this to them would suffer most of all. She smiles grimly, walking onward, as she considers the torturous deaths to which she plans to subject them. There are two that she knows personally, and others whom she has only seen at a distance, but in her mind they are all equally guilty and they must all pay penance. She must seem docile as a lamb while secretly cunning as a serpent. She must convince them she is there to help. They will not turn her away, she is certain. She is a woman, and she can bear children. She has recently proven that. She will be a valuable commodity, and when they least expect it, she will strike, bringing them down as surely as they ever did to him. She is tiring now, and the voice of the man at her side whispers in her ear, telling her she must not rest, she must press forward. The facility she seeks is only a few miles away, and if she continues, she will reach it this day. She tells him of her plans, and they laugh together. He reminds her to keep his presence a secret, for if they are discovered together, the men who must die will separate them yet again. They walk and talk and remember for another few hours. Just outside the perimeter of the facility, she comes upon a stream still filled with water, and drops to her knees, bringing the refreshing liquid eagerly to her mouth, drinking until she feels almost ill. Then she lies back, looking dreamily up into his eyes, while he tells her to clean herself and make herself look as attractive as possible. They must not know how desperate she has become, he says urgently. They must believe she has come here easily, not by a back-breaking trek across miles and miles of desert. They must believe the child is still alive. She agrees, removing her tattered clothing and splashing quickly into the water, bathing as best she can with no soap or washcloth. Then she emerges, dries herself in the blazing sun, and dresses in the other clothing she has been saving for this occasion, the clothing which does not show signs of wear and tear. With a supportive hand on her shoulder, the man nods for her to go on, and she does, approaching the facility slowly but with determined, measured steps. No outward sign of her fear will show. She sees him there in the doorway, waiting for her--the one who must be the first to die. His hands are nicotine stained and his complexion is sallow, but for the first time in her recollection he does not hold a cigarette between his fingers. She supposes there are no more to be found on this burned out world. He gives the sinister smile that often haunts her nightmares and greets her with what she might mistake for sincerity if she did not know he was the devil in disguise. She casually fingers the weapon in her pocket and allows him to escort her inside. The End Okay, I know it was depressing, but write what you feel, right? ;) laura@ddgallery.net